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Ode to The One We Lost

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As a meteor you were.
A genius the world lost before it grasped your worth.
One minute you were; the next you were no more.
So full of life yet in an instant stung by death’s cruel sting.
I will never comprehend.
Knowing this makes me want to live out my days with a greater sense of purpose,
yet with carefree sobriety. While I can.
Knowing each day that blooms must either count for something
or easily comes to nothing

I realise nothing really matters except that EVERYONE does matter.
The best and the worst of us – I MUST remember that!!!!
To be kinder, more patient, to be more compassionate, to be more loving.
Makes me want to be all these things each day I’ve got.
Makes me want to cry deeper, to laugh richer,
from the belly and from the bones;
to play and be playful, harder, to give and to receive with all I can be;
to all who will experience me.

Makes me yearn to explore and understand my humanity better,
to respect my mortality with dignity and
to reverence the awesomeness of our eternal Hope.
You were one of my many tests.
Did I pass?
Did I fail?
I truly know not but one thing I do know;
I could have hugged you closer, loved you purer, smothered
you endlessly even as I scolded you in fond exasperation.
Had I known better; that you simply weren’t here for the long haul…

My heart is heavy but being healed by the message your death communicates.
The transience of our mortality is the greatest mystery of life and ultimately of death.
The only time we’ve got is only the time we’re given.
It’s that simple, yet that complex.
Too many whys, with no answers.
Life offers its own hope and yes even death offers it’s own hope.

For the gift and the test of you,
I‘ll always be grateful; to the One who ordered our paths so.
You may be gone but you remain a lesson I’m still learning;
a message I’ll do best to live by.

Rest in peace my darling, my precious and my beautiful one.
You were so young yet so old.
Thank you!!! For so much you gave, for so much you did.
I say goodbye to you but NEVER to be forgotten.
You are etched in the fondest memories;
ensconced forever in my heart till we meet again
in the splendour of eternity’s glorious realms.
I love you.

– Kobi Emmanuella-King

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